The Search for Dead Man's Tools
 

 

 

 

 

 


The Continuing Quest for the Light of Self Discovery

 

 

 

Volume 5 in the series ‘Songs for Michael’

Written by Gay A. Wright

Published by Golden Age Word Publications

Volume of poetry work is copyrighted in 1991 and carries an ISBN number

 

 

Volume 5

 

is dedicated to

Philip Powell

the dark skin brother of light

that brought the message

in from the universe

for the continuing quest

for Dead Man's tools

 

also to the

embodied lights

that shine in my life

that are part of the poetry

 

Debby

Sunsu Rei

Rex

Aaron

Tony

Honey

Jim

Guy

Marilyn

Kenny

Max

Tom

Jabari

Brian

Kelly

Cynthia

 Julia

Philip

Dana

Ginger

Linda

John, the last Michael

and Carl, the Beaver Man

to mention a few

 

 

 

This poem was meant to be in the last volume, however it is still valid and remains here…

healing from my last love affair as I go on with life.

 

Feb 1991

 

WHEN I LOOK AT YOU

 

 

When I look at you

I feel like I want

To absorb you right

Up under my skin

So you can be part of me.

 

But, then I look at you again

And find I want you

Right where you are,

Because when you are being

So much a part of me

 

You are not being enough of you

And I am not being enough of me.

I heard that from a sage one time

Words popping up so true I did not

Grasp the meaning until now.

 

I enjoyed you being under my skin

I lived and breathed your essence.

However when you withdrew,

You made my skin stretch so tight

I felt like it would tear out my heart.

 

So I have spent the last few weeks

Slowly and carefully pulling

The leftover residues of you

Out from under my skin,

So I can be me again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

February 28, 1991

 

I made it hard for myself to let go of the last Michael in my life.  I really thought we could work on the

spiritual level and found we were really bound by physical issues. He hadn't made it yet...however,

I know I can continue my soul growth without him.

 

 

THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU

 

 

The last time I saw you

You went out like you came in, almost

To the day last year when you arrived

And left your card in my screen door.

Only this time when you left

You took your card with you.

 

The last time I saw you

Was like Paris in spring.. It rained

Nothing was said, only felt indications.

Not knowing really how to read the

Mixed messages that hung in the air,

Just feeling the truth wrench my soul

 

The last time I saw you

I knew you were headed for another

Destination with your other self

I felt you weren't being fair to leave me

Floundering in the emotions of

My self built romantic scenario.

 

The last time I saw you

I felt lopsided, wobbly, and unfocused

And day-by-day I dealt with not being able

To physically touch you again.

One day I will surprise you, and when we meet

You will see I made it without you,

 

And I am better off because of it.

 

 

 

June 28, 1991

 

My last jab with my pen at the final Michael in my life...

 

THE WIFE, SHE HAS ARRIVED

 

 

 

You messed with Mrs. Murphy.

You were warned I could bite back

With double-edged words.

It always pays to be truthful

With your unspoken intentions.

I have lived to see this day

And have found you stabbed in your

Issues with another's verbal sword.

 

What goes around returns

Thrice to the sender

Mrs. Murphy brought your

Actions back to you

Not even with the same song

And with a different singer

Yours returned from the Universe

Through an unknown source

 

And I didn't have to lift a finger

With a serving from my poison pen.

You impaled yourself well enough

With your own revenge and devious deeds 

My karmic debt is paid in full

I have released your hold completely

I owe you nothing more  

I am finally free of your slavery  

 

 

 

January 30, 1991

 

A healing experienced by two, by a master healer and novice; on a level of ecstasy, a new frequency, which is accessed by unconditional love and understanding.... an afternoon with Guy, the Shiatsu master

 

THE HEALING BOND

 

 

I gently reached out and touched your

Shoulders ever so lightly, seeing the pain.

Concentrating my attention on the higher

Aspects of life I began to help you heal.

Caressing your energy aura gently so as

Not to disturb your physical body.

 

I worked up your etheric field from your

Waist over your neck and down your arms.

My hands passed over the edges of your

Weary soul, slowly cleansing your light

Ethers tenderly with my feathery touch,

Balancing your male - female polarities.

 

I stroked up your back, over your shoulders, 

Down your arms, then slowly shook the

Worry and stress off my fingertips.

I repeated this passage over and over

To the pulsations of meditative music.

Lifting the mind and bonding our souls.

 

Up, you leaned on my strength as I reached

Over, within your vitality deep into your nucleus

Down, lingered with the rhythms of light,

Slowly, raised your re-awakened visions higher

 

Up, let go of mundane earthly sight

Over, spirally ascend into astral bliss

Down, you blended your breathing with mine

Slowly, and released all your physical pain

 

Up, I guided light beams around your entire body

Over, merging our translucent spirit forms

Down, with the essence I gathered in my palms

Slowly, dream weaving your colors with mine

 

Up, raising every nerve end sensitivity

Over, re-vitalizing the surface of your skin.

Down, gentle strokes that soothed the rough edges

Slowly, and intensified your surrounding hues.

 

Up, I nurtured your soul centers with my motherly nature

Over, I was sent to you by the Universe and you to me

Down, to explore an experience beyond all physicality,

Slowly, the pleasure of touching heals the soul.

 

Up, the energy triggered an orgasm within you

Over, the very top canopy of stars you flew

Down, you came with a complete healing release

Slowly, l accomplished this by just stroking your aura

 

And by serving the needs

Of our inner Divinity

It heals the healer as well.  

 

May 24, 1991

 

This started as a letter to a lady friend in England, who was in the same pain as I, both suffering the

end of a former love affair.  It ended as a poem of love and healing for the both of us....

 

Air Mail First Class

 

 

I was going to write you a note,

My reply to a letter from a friend

An enclosure to the books I'm sending,

But, I have composed you a poem instead.

 

I met you, my Royal Lady from England

However, you weren't Her Majesty, the Queen

You wore neither hat nor gloves,

Regardless, you are as regal as I've ever seen.

 

You are a delicate person, with wit,

A strong spirit and glowing light.

And you, as I, together share the pain

Of a heart broken relationship

 

After weeks of soul wrenching agony

I've just recently dried my tears,

Balanced my perspective, steadied my heart

And slowly I've let go of the pain.

 

After the ache has past, we can see men

Are like busses, coming through the

Window of life’s opportunity, miss the first one,

Another one is scheduled, coming down the street,

    

       Due to arrive in approximately ten minutes.

 

 

page 2.

 

We both thought we had chosen the

Perfect man to be in our lives,

But alas, they each have chosen

Someone else to be with instead,

 

It's time to dry your eyes too,

My charming little English lady.

Straighten your tilting crown

And tidy up your overcrowded throne room.

 

I've sent you volumes of inspiration

To help heal your soul and banish your grief.

The time has come to live for yourself.

Love doesn't come from the external male.

 

Take heart, the perfect man is only as perfect

As we vision him in our minds eye, a view

Distorted by lust or by an even greater quest

For the lifetime partnership we yearn for.

 

It is possible to manifest better things

Than the grief we put ourselves to the test with.

Get out the routes for mass transit, and look

Under the new schedule of busses just released

 

          Due to arrived in approximately 10 minutes.

 

page 3.

 

So, do not be disheartened by the

Memories of your recently vacated past,

You are young, beautiful and talented. 

Love life, it is a product of your desires.

 

You can make life good for yourself.

Just file this experience away, like I did,

Under the title of, "Perfect man for last year.

While he was here, I loved him well, and he, me."

 

If it is any consolation for you to know,

The bed of the 'goddess on the pedestal'

Lies cold too, for not only did she lose,

But she was never in the running to win his derby.

 

Which is more than I can say for her in my world

I will never be sure of how the triangle was drawn

For not only was his relationship lost, but

They each withdrew their friendship from me.

 

So much for their heightened spirituality

I miss them both, I loved them both deeply

And mourned their passing with the proper epitaph

So, I’m now waiting, on the corner for the 9:03

         

          Due to arrive in approximately 10 minutes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

June 22, 1991

 

Three female musicians from the band ‘Velvet Hammer’ went out on their own looking

for a new band name .....to Ginger, Linda and Dana....Modern Goddesses all... 

 

 

 

Ode to the Goddesses of Mid-Summer

 

 

The solstice half moon hung to the south

Softly luminous behind a veil of lacy gauze clouds

While the goddesses filled the summer air with magic,

Lavish melodies woven under the velvet night canopy

    By Aphrodite, Artemis and Phosphene

 

Jupiter, Mars and Venus clustered in the late evening sky,

A brilliantly configured trinity of celestial splendor

Suspended above the western horizon, poised briefly

Over the goddess trio before dipping out of sight

    Blessing Aphrodite, Artemis, and Phosphene.

 

The wavering light of candles at their feet illuminated

Prior offerings of silken love draped on the mike stands,

Here the goddesses gathered in search of a modern christening,

An identity that would unite the end of the Pisces Age together

    With Aphrodite, Artemis and Phosphene.

 

 

page 2.

 

The red-haired Aphrodite played the rune-faced guitar

Rocking gently to and fro on her half shell, bringing

Sensual rhythms up from every fiber within her inner soul

Gently pulsating them into the songs of love she sung,

    Her offering to the world.

 

The dark, agile Phosphene leaned into the electric bass and

Stroked haunting vibrations from the strings, delivering

Deep rounded chorded sounds up from the bowels of the earth,

Alternating it with airy notes blown from her heavenly flute,

    Her offering to the world.

 

The beautiful Artemis fingered the ivories with charged vitality

Hovering over the keyboards with passionate ardor, joining

The electric harmonies and her melodic voice with the other muses,

binding the ternary union of spiritual enchantment

    Her offering to the world.

 

Together they serenaded us with spellbinding musical wizardry. 

Hypnotizing all with ascending musical waves of spiraling light

This night of mid-summer symphony, a mystical inspiration that

Evoked my vision of pure CRYSTAL DREAMS, a name I offer up

To Aphrodite, Artemis and Phosphene. 

 

 

 

June 1991   

 

For Kenny Hill, the artist who illustrated my last volume of poetry.  He came into my life in a flash and then disappeared as fast as he came, stopping only momentarily to do the drawings.

I was inspired to complement him on his sensuality and the way he made women’s heads turn for shear lust,

Including mine

 

MY ARTIST

 

 

You were sitting across the

Restaurant table from me

Discussing business plans

However, my mind was focused on your

Incredibly long hair

Oh boy, how I would like to

Run my fingers through its silkiness

How you pushed it back from your face

With your hand and a quick toss of your head

 

 

What a drag not to be 30 years younger

       20 maybe .....10 anyway

It doesn't matter, because a woman

Is forever ageless in her mind

And the passion is always there.

 

 2.

 

The conversation continued over drinks

About the deal we were arranging

However, my mind was drawn to your

Lean muscular body

How you breathed new life into the term

'Painted on jeans' and I wondered

How you ever managed to reach for the small

Change in your pockets

And did you need any help getting it out.

 

 

What a drag not to be 30 years younger

       20 maybe .....10 anyway

It doesn't matter, because a woman

Is forever young in her heart

And the desire is always there.

 

3.

 

The air hummed with dynamic energy


As we began animation for the project

However, my mind was admiring the vitality of

Your liquid hazel eyes and sensual hands

Propelling ideas across the sketching pad

They revealed your inner creative capabilities

What a surprising totality of being

I'm glad to know you, and call you my friend

 

 

What a drag not to be 30 years younger

       20 maybe .....10 anyway

It doesn't matter, because friendship

Spans all ages between like souls,

And the admiration is always there.

 

 

 

 

June 26, 1991

 

A cryptic written message from the universe

given to me to translate from Sunsu-Rei....I said I couldn't read it.

She said if you meditate on it you can figure it out, this was done with a little help from my friends, Cynthia and Debbie

 

SEVEN SISTERS OF THE PLEIADES

 

 

Awaken Earth!!

Reclaim your destiny

The seedlings of past eons

Have sprouted forth

The time has come to

Harmonize the light that

Shines from within each soul

To revitalize the energies and

Realign the purpose we came for

We are the caretakers of the new fruit

Seven Sisters of the Pleiades

The time traveling gardeners

Watching over the cosmic growth

We have come to harvest the crop

Of off springs we planted on earth

Early at the dawn of cosmic time

And to distribute them anew

Into homes among the heavenly realms

Beyond the sphere of the Rising Suns

Of the Almighty Divine Oneness.

 

 

 

 

July 15, 1991

 

Two men, one gay, the other a star person, each one carries the light of the divine

 

ABOUT BRYAN

 

I met a light today

Embodied in a man

A special soul sent

From our sister stars

Who shared his glowing self

When he smiled and

Touched the world

 

 

GATHERING OF LIGHTS

 

 

My world seems to be filled

With special light visitations

Who are embodied in men.

The second one this week arrived

From the south, really from the

Southern part of the Universe

Beyond the belt of Orion and Taurus

In the star system that holds

My home planet of Argonia.

 

We shared the day and eve

In complete harmony and peace

Then I asked him to direct his soul

Energy to the place of his origin.

When he pointed, I wasn't surprised

That I found it was also mine.

We aligned the pathway between

Our hearts and our home planet.

The family of one light is truly

Starting to gather together.

 

August 10, 1991

This one was a thought that came in the middle of the night,

 

TRUTH

 

 

Can memories of truth be

Picked up from past ravelings

And captured in a skein of words

To be carefully knitted into a

Present fabric of illusion??

 

Or is truth just grasped 

By the experience of the

Momentary illusion and

Unraveled into a

Skein of words??

 

 

 

 

Aug 1991

 

This one spent a stormy night and we shared thoughts

 

 

LITTLE PRINCE

 

 

You came to me from the universe

And offered me comfort on a

             Dark stormy night.

 

I reached to hold your hands

And was amazed to find you

             Lying in my arms.

 

We stayed together until you

Were unique unto me, as the Fox was

             To the Little Prince

 

Now I am responsible for you

For I have tamed you with

   My loving touch

 

 

Aug 1991

When I met Max, a gifted musician friend, we knew each other from another time, and remembered our love in a 16th century life.  We decided to renew the friendship.  However, we knew we didn't need to relive the pain we lived in another time.

 

I CAN'T QUITE REMEMBER

 

 

I touch you

You are warm, sensual, radiating

I can't quite remember

When it was that I touched you before

 

Your closeness

Brings a familiar distant veiled memory

I can't quite remember

Where we were and how to place the puzzling pieces

 

I feel you

Soft, gentle, intimate, it's obvious we've loved 

I can't quite remember

Who we both were when I felt you before

 

I see you

In this space and time,

As though you had never left

I can't quite remember

What time has held veiled so long in separation

 

I hear your voice calling

From past connections,

Sweet melodies of my mirrored soul

I can't quite remember

The words of the song

I only hear fragments of my other self 

 

You bring me a gift in this life

A chance to complete

Something we left unfinished

An opportunity to remember

Each other completely again and

Share in all passions of the purest form

 

 

August 19, 1991

 

The 16th century was tough.  As Max and Ramona, we lost from our passion.

We got it right this time, he gave me music, and I gave him poetry

 

 

ROMOMA SPEAKS

 

 

I offered you my heart in the past, you haven't broken it

It's still yours preserved from previous encounters

 

I have endured the passing of time

When we haven't touched and have loved you truly as myself

 

I still dance with you in my arms

For you are in my dreams as we travel from age to age.

 

Accept me as I am, I extend my love,

The purity that only a true heart can show one's self.

 

I have the courage to reconnect the fragments of our past

You are the shadow of myself that recalls all that I have forgotten.

 

You are the other part of me and together we remember it all

For we belong to the family of the one soul the trinity of the universal I Am

 

We must forgive ourselves for the errors of our past unions

And rectify the desolation and ruin; the salty fruit born from forbidden passion

 

We are blessed by the positive powers that have allowed us to meet again in this life

And have given us the strength to bind our souls alliance to a higher purpose.

 

The purity, courage and endurance we need to raise our Awareness

Beyond this level of consciousness and recognize the way of ascension to God.

 

 

 

August 28, 1991

 

This is what the music did for me; I saw the Celestial realms, much better this time Max....

I love you ... you know that

 

SOUL MUSIC

 

 

I saw through the opening in the melody,

Lyrical spirals that surrounded my soul.

 

And caught a glimpse of my angelic being

That resides inside the door of my higher self

 

My winged over soul that guides and watches over me

And radiates the brilliance of the celestial presence.

 

I was the color of pure cobalt and deep indigo

The richness that comes from an infinite summer day

 

I was the tone vibrating strength and endurance

Gained by living in the physical realm

 

I was the sound of courage circling upward from separation,

Painful issues of my earthly loss and desolation

 

I was the universal song vibrating through the

Reverberation of heavenly bells

 

I was the face of peace and immaculate Light,

Chanting songs of praise to the Divine Oneness

 

I was the music that carried me over the edge,

The translation of my aura you see floating around me

 

I was the Love shared by you as we travel

The time paths together throughout eternity

 

 

 

 

 

August 28, 1991

 

What's in a name?  Mine it seems carries much said and unsaid....

So, now I'm saying it all.

 

A MATTER OF WRIGHTS

 

 

I'm Gay.

That is to say my name is Gay.

 

I can't tell you I'm gay.

Because I'm straight.

 

Which is a noun and not an adverb.

Now, for the other half of the story

 

My last name is Wright.

With a W and not an R

 

Which makes me the one and only truly

Gay Wright, all the rest are impostors.

 

This is droll poke at society and

The name I was destined to carry.

 

That doesn't necessarily make me correct,

But is always makes me ‘Wright’.

 

I have many friends who have chosen

To live this alternative life style

 

They are super beautiful sweet people

That posses a sense of humor too.

 

They call me their personal Gay Wrights

And we laugh at the absurdity of it all.

 

 

 

 

 

August 28, 1991

 

I found a friend in pain and I extended my hand to help...

I found him a valuable asset to heal the pain in my life

 

NOTE TO A FRIEND

 

 

Suicide is a cop out.

We can not accept that as

Your alternative to life.

Are you so blinded by your issues

Not to see how you would sadden

Those of us around you who love you.

Can you be so selfish not to share your life with us. 

We too, face similar trials each day and manage

To toughen our resolve to see them to completion.

Our collective experiences gives us

Strength and compassion...

   

   To offer you joy to fill your despondent heart

   To offer you hope to lift you out of your misery

   To offer you light to cleanse your souls darkness

   To offer you understanding in your hour of need

   To offer you solace and help in any form you require

   To offer you respect you deserve as a person

 

For we are all the children of the divine oneness

And we are blessed to walk on earth

Dressed in the finery of the human body.

Allow us to assist you out of the pit of desolation

So you can view with more clarity

The gifts you possess and how to use them

To find you’re way to inner peace and happiness.

 

 

 

October 5, 1991

 

Jabari is a black poet and musician from Houston. He lives and breathes, at the moment, un-bearded. Nevertheless, he is charismatic, fluid and I call him a friend

 

October 5, 1991

 

JABARI

 

 

 

Lean

  Tall

   Feet of

      at least 14...

 

Nevertheless....

 

Black,

  Dressed in a

      Manila cloud of

         Unbleached muslin...

 

Fingers

   Flying in time

      To the essence

            Of words...

 

Tumbling waves

   Of lyrical rhythms

      Transitory motions

          From the beating heart...

 

Momentarily caught

     In a delicious slice

         Of his cultural

              Conversation...

 

 

 

August 28, 1991

 

My friend Tom Harter is a cosmic traveler and one I have known forever. 

In this life he was the host to our poetry group.

This loosely translates into the Wizard of Tom's Ego...

 

The Wizard of Tomounis Egoinium

 

 

The Cosmic Wizard

  Appeared out of nowhere

     Scanning the universe

        For a world to fix.    

           He teetered tenaciously

                  At the cross roads

                       Of galactic time

                          Carrying the tools            

                                  Of his trade.

                      

The handle of his magic bag

    Was all that showed.

       The majority of the satchel

          Was undetectable,

              For it was woven

                  From a tapestry of dreams,

                      The cloth he made up

                          As he traveled on his way         

                              Between the stars.

 

 

 

September 3, 1991

 

My staff and I went to Kerrville and wove magic on the mountain.

We sent the young warriors through the rites of passage and received the magic back again....

the universe always provides blessings in disguised ways.....

 

Rites of Passage

 

 

The universe provides rewards to those who

Share the love and wisdom of the divine

One feathered eye of peacock

One transparent facetted green glass bead

One hand molded ceramic African trading bauble

One brass key to the Atlantean healing shrine in me

One small seashell of pacific origin

One button that holds the inscription

"Unicorns of the Underworld Unite"

 

Magical contents of one

  Brown suede talisman bag

    Mystical replacement parts       

       Gifted by the Universe and

         Presented to me by a enchanting lady

           Julia of San Antonio

              Rewards received out of a stormy night

                 Exchanged for staffs created for the

                    Sacred Rites of Passage

                      Of five young warrior boys

 

 

 

 

 

July 1991

Dreams, visions, awareness, all come from the higher planes.  Therein live the guides of our lives.  This vision was especially vivid.

 

 

Turkey Man

 

The aged Turkey man came to me

From the land of visionary dreams

When the world lay in quiet repose

And gave to me gifts it seems.

 

Wearing leggings of beaded finery

Designs of intricate Indian lore

Laced around his body with thongs

Pictures of my life he offered.

 

While the thunder rolled and rumbled

The dark green and yellow clouds

Reflected in his blind opaque eyes

While he danced in steps proudly odd.

 

His head wobbled gently up and down

Crowned with an old black top hat

Ancient creases in the crumpled felt held

Three white feathers hanging to where he sat.

 

His face was handsome and year worn

High cheekbones carried with noble deeds

Throat dark ruby red hung wrinkled with age

Neck laced with mystic braided beads.

 

In a magic dance he stepped in time

Across the floor of my beating heart

Giving all of his sacred life freely

I felt the spiritual enlightenment start.

 

He entranced me and drew me close

I stroked his soft skin and held him near

Requesting that I might have a piece

Of his beading to remember him being here.

 

He gave me is soul, for it was really mine

Small segments precisely woven together

Over the vast eons of time, rich tapestries

Of lives embedded in my garment forever.

 

His message was one I was to remember

Give of yourself always to your brothers

The virtue of continuing service to all people

Is acknowledgement of self-growth through others.

 

 

 

 

September 14, 1991

 

After the last Michael, I met a new man.... he brought our Indian past with him...

This was the Beaver Man from the forked River of the North Platte.  I found him on the 9:03

 

 

REVISION

 

 

 

He spoke of gentleness

Calm, softly absolute, quiet.

Patience, rooted with spear and feather

Is this the enigmatic man?

 

He had feeling pressing from his lips

The words charged with fiery ice

Deep, challenging, erotic thoughts

Is this the enigmatic man?

 

He was the image I manifested in dreams

The unique collaboration of partnership

I had never experienced before

This may be the enigmatic man

 

The revision I requested from the universe

 

 

 

 

 

September 20, 1991

 

So The Beaver man enters stage left...and starts construction across the river of my heart

 

 

THE SILENT CONVERSATION

 

 

His eyes talked to her

From across the room

His smile beckoned with

Tantalizing promises

Curious to see what

Stirred the compelling desire

She replied by sitting by his side

It had been a long time

Since they both had been

So close to someone.

 

What took you so long?" he said,

"This is nice."

 

"So it is," said she.

 

 

 

 

 

September 3, 1991

 

What the beaver man says about the ...... State of grace and the builder of dreams

 

 

THE SWAN WOMAN AND THE BEAVER MAN

 

 

The power of fair swan woman

Teaching me to build on my dreams

And attain achievements in my world

Entering the duality of sacred space

Teamwork truly holds the key

Lessons learned though life's construction

Sharing in acceptance of the future

As the Universe provides me challenges

 

  One thought flowing with the experiential currents

  One heart opens to positive constant flow

  One love involving harmony in production of self

  One life learning to open the boundaries of limitations

  One soul on the border of bringing in eternal grace

 

 

 

August 30, 1991

 

The Beaver Man and I met on a glorious afternoon, along Allen Parkway under the skyline of Houston

...we walked in the park and bridged the gap from our past to the present and looked into the future....

 

 

SIMPLE PLEASURES

 

We walked in the park

I've lived here ten years

And this was my first walk

We held hands and talked

Strolling over the grassy expanse

As the breeze lightly stirred the trees

Simple pleasures shared by two

 

 

We watched the sunset

I've lived here ten years

And have never enjoyed a rosier hue

We sat on the hillside

And embellished upon the yarns that

Embroidered the fabric of our lives

Simple pleasures shared by two

 

 

We talked of love,

My first, your second, our third

I've lived here ten years

And no one knows more of me than you

My hopes and dreams, your view of life

Our visions conjured up beneath

Steel towers that lined the parkway

Simple pleasures shared by two.

 

 2.

 

The moon rose and then waned before us

I've lived here ten years

And have never witnessed a greater brightness

We counted the falling stars

And the orbiting planets

We touched each other’s souls

As we sat beside the water fountain

Simple pleasures shared by two

 

 

We spent the evening in deep conversation

I've lived her ten years

And have never experienced

More quality time in a shorter duration

You bared your chest, and I stroked it

You massaged my feet, then replaced my shoes

Simple pleasures shared by two.

 

 

We said goodnight by the edge of the city

I've lived here ten years

And its silhouette was the sharpest I recall

You disappeared from my vision

Into the depths of the night

I took the space we created

Home with me--to keep forever

Simple pleasures shared by two.

 

 

 

 

September 3, 1991

 

One of the first conversations with the Beaver Man….

he was enigmatic and made me think about the riddles he spoke

 

WALKING THE POINT

 

 

Dangerously close

To isolation

Walking the point

He took my hand

Control, alternate, delete

Successful reboot

System back to zero start

Balanced duality a C:

 

 

 

August 10, 1991

 

Continuing the same thought ……

 

COUNTER POINT

 

Why, he asked her

Was it the mental

Or physical pain?

Did she enjoy San Antonio

And the spiritual ones of space?

She reached out

And held his hand

She brought the light

Of the stars with her

Filling his heart,

His soul, his space

And walked his point with him.

 

 

 

 

 

September 7,1991 

 

Incident told to me from the childhood of the Beaver Man

 

KING OF EAGLES

 

 

The focus is fabricated

From cards stacked in the deck

The King of Eagles reigns the sky

 

Love is held in the overflowing cup

Justification of primal sacrifices

Tear the King of Eagles from the sky

 

For all the redeeming savage demands

One ego shot soaring true to the mark

Dropped the King of Eagles out of the sky

 

How else to carry the honored the sacred feather

But to relinquish his hold on the riding wind

The King of Eagles is the spirit of the sky

 

 

 

 

 

September 20, 1991

 

Love affairs start with an ultimate sexual union .... especially mine expressed here in metaphor

 

 

COSMIC PASSION

 

The dragon master

Came from the other

Side of the two moons

And planted himself

Deep within the womb

Of Mother Earth.

 

She quaked and moaned

In her grassy bed

With quivers and after shocks

That shook the very core

Of the heavens.

 

He thundered and roared

And stars rattled

With a chorus to

The rhythms they produced.

 

They bonded on the brink

Of the blackness below

She gifted him with the

Life forces of the

Physical plane

 

And made him the river

That flows eternally

Crystal clear 

Though the banks

Of her soul

 

 

 

 

September 19, 1991

 

Visions can come from tapping into another soul....awareness while still sleeping and sometimes while awake

 

 

 

EROTIC CONVERSATION

 

Connected only by a touch

Patterned imagery cascading

In a continuous river

Erotic conversations of

Wafting geometric shapes

Surrealistic ideas parading

In mathematical precision

Across the sheets

 

My hand on your shoulder

Accepting crystal communications

Perceiving memorandums from

You’re subconscious knowing.

Conversational sex circulating

In multi-colored facsimiles from

The variable chemistry of your mind

Connected only by a touch

 

 


 

 

October 5, 1991

 

My friend Aaron, the light warrior, moved to Florida the end of this summer and I bid him good bye

saying, "Next year Aaron I will come and sit on your beach and talk to the Dolphins with you."

If you don't see me next year, you'll know who I'm talking to and where....

  The first verse was on a picture hanging in Aaron’s’ house, the second verse is what I would add to it.

 

FOR AARON

 

 

Aaron Rosewater

 

Artist,

   Inventor,

      Scientist,

         Way shower,

A light from a distant star.

 

Words embroidered on a tapestry.

To these I would add...

 

Light Warrior

 

Friend, 

   Inspiration,

       Counselor,

           Companion traveler,

As we rode to earth on the red eye express

From the outer rim of the Pleiades.

 

 

A final note, I never saw Aaron again, I guess the Universe figured I didn’t need him any more

 

 

 

 

September 30, 1991

 

A message for me from the Universe delivered to me from the Black Brother of Light, containing

the next quest for my self discovery and my re-connection to the Divine Oneness,

to find out what Dead Man's Tools are....

 

 

DEAD MAN'S TOOLS

 

My search for self-discovery begins.

Hold the shield of Odin chest high

The one eyed god of Norse legend

The bearded hermit, keeper of the sacred light

Defender of fallen warriors, protector of poets seeking

Dead Man's tools once buried in icy caverns.

 

Shaman sticks sent from the stars

Traveling from the borders of Tibetan mountains

To the lower plains of southern India

Finding artifacts as old as the eternal father

To be used by the enlightened one who rattles

Dead Man's tools to awaken the soul.

 

My mission revealed as the startling words of

The black brother of the Light jolted my life.

Awakening in my sleeping spirit the quest

Along the primitive edges of aboriginal dreamtime

To find cup of hip, mace of shoulder socket

Dead man's tools carved from bone of thigh.

 

The descending heavenly light divides in half

At the base of my neck and curves into angel wings

As I journey into my past collecting the parts of

My body that are the instruments of my craft

Left in the safe keeping of the temple guardians

Dead Man's tools made from King Solomon's magician.

 

Scattered for eons over the face of the earth

Fragments of the Holy monk self entombed,

by his choice to serve the needs of mankind. 

Break the time barrier and gather each piece

Of the body proper for council.

The skeleton forms into a framework of golden grids

Dead Man's tools found with the re-connection of bones.

 

 

                                   

 

 

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